You Spin Me Round

It seems like every where you turn there's hypocritical b.s.

Everyone that you think you can rely on, is actually not worthy of an ounce of your trust. People that are SUPPOSED to be reliable, people whose job description is meant to include things like, RELIABILITY, and HONESTY.

The more you depend upon these manipulative people, the more they're able to manipulate you, leading you not only to distrust yourself, but to also distrust the people who - miraculously - are honest with you!

There just seem to be so many instances in my life where, the people who I grew up counting on to be there for me and to set a good example, are people that now, I have to forgive for all of their whopper-size-mistakes.

Multiple people in my life - people in the church - have had affairs, not just like, one couple. Try three. And those are only the KNOWN affairs.

And it's not just that fact that you cheated on your husband and wife; it's not just the fact that you deceived your children; it's not the fact that you were in a position of power where the whole church is looking to you as a moral compass; it's the way you handled it too.

Whenever I've done anything wrong - granted, none of my mistakes were adultery - but when I've done anything wrong in my life, I've had to sit around and accept the consequences, I'd have to wait and see whatever damage it was that I had caused to those around me. Two of the three couples that cheated on their spouses fled. They didn't remain to see the church they left behind.
Beyond just avoiding their problem, they also ignored it. One of the three couples acted as if the adulterating had not even occurred. They remain in a state of delusion in reference to themselves, and attempted deception to those that already know of their actions.

One of the three couples separated. Which means, obviously, that two of the three couples remained together. Be it for the sake of their children, or to save face, or for themselves, to maintain their facade.

It's infuriating to think that people who can be so... misguided, are continuing to misguide others.

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On a different note, one of the couples, who stayed together, stayed to see what their consequences might be, and also acknowledged their wrong-doing, recently had a child together - 18 months ago.
This baby boy has been in the hospital for 18 months.
There have been gastrointestinal problems.
There have been heart problems.
There have been lots of complications.
He has down syndrome.

Solely on judging this situation, it looks as though God is punishing them, but how can that make sense? The people who are trying their best to do what is right in the eyes of God and accepting responsibility, are the ones who seem to be punished the most.

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe they're happy with their new baby boy who's already had so much trouble in this crazy world where he's only bound to have more trouble.
But more likely than not, this has been all the more difficult on them, knowing that they've been unfaithful.

It's hard for me to accept that God is a malicious and unforgiving God.
I believe that God is merciful, and gracious; powerful, but wonderful.
I'm a firm believer in "God has a plan through all things, even when we don't understand".

Yet, it's hard to believe that through all of the frustrating problems we are presented with.